the seasons are changing and i'm running out of excuses.

at the risk of maybe sounding like a stereotypical white girl, I LOVE FALL. like soooo much. but i am here to say and state that there is nothing wrong with being "stereotypical" if it means you're vocalizing or being passionate about something you genuinely love. i always like to hear people's explanations as to why they love things, even if it's something 3/4 of others love too! i mean, if that many people love it there's probably a great reason.

fall just feels right. there are many many quotes that make my insides feel so content and when it's put into words that someone else feels the same way about it, there's that reassuring feeling someone else GETS IT.

i have a couple of reasons why i feel so passionate about fall time. firstly, i do not deal with hot weather well. i find it makes me feel extremely uncomfortable and sometimes even anxious, so when i step out of the house and it's slightly cold with a nice breeze, when i breathe in i think my soul actually says ahhh thank you world for bringing the more comfortable weather. secondly, i do have a lot of self conscience issues i know i need to work out, but for now, they are ever so present and constantly at the fore front of my mind and thoughts. i hate having to show too much skin because it's too hot to wear layers or comfy clothes. fall fits how i feel. i can dress in comfy big sweaters and things that make me feel safe. thirdly, i am a sucker for a nice warm beverage in a mug that feels like a hug. apple cider, a hot coffee, all of the kinds of tea or my all time favourite. a chai-der. it's apple cider and chai tea mix.. please try. i promise it will not disappoint.

all of these little day to day things about fall, the temperature, the attire, the beverages.. these are things i love dearly. another favourite aspect of this time of year is how lots of people are going back to school, getting back into routine, etc. i love summer for the social aspect and not feeling quite as guilty for the number of hot dogs and beers i've ingested since may but i also love the idea of a "fresh start" with the brisker weather on it's way, i look at it as an opportunity to maybe adjust some of the bad habits i incorporated over the summer and to add some new personal development aspects moving forward. i am slowlyyyyy learning to not be so hard on myself at the same time when i don't wake up on the 1st and completely change my life. i know that's like setting myself up for failure which hurts even more than not getting up and going to the gym every day. i know sometimes it's a slow process in which i have to listen to what my body needs and wants. i would love to be a person who wakes up and goes to the gym every morning and eats oatmeal and does yoga and goes to the farmers market on saturday mornings.. i know i could do all of these things but i also know i need to implement one thing at a time. i have talked in other posts about my ongoing fear of running out of time and wasting time. but this is another aspect i'm learning to be okay with. learning to just live in the moment and that it's just as important to love and respect the person i am now, even though i know where i want her to be and know that it's not what i am now. i have to love the journey, healthiness and happiness is not a final destination and this is something i have always struggled with as a concept... i just want to get there y'know?

i feel guilty in wishing for things to slow down and to have less plans. i am looking forward to everyone being in routines and making time for each other but also taking the downtime i know i need to be with myself and curl up with a good book and a cup of tea or go to a coffee shop with my laptop and a friend. to cozy nights with my forever growing sweater weather playlist (here is the link!)
(https://open.spotify.com/user/chelsscrawford/playlist/7EWxRo5d8KgOSKXY0BYgv3?si=KfffWG7kQrelsSsvwKq54Q) making homemade soups and chilis, drinking wine and playing cards surrounded by my friends and candles and so many more cozy things. i am looking forward to fall weekend hikes and wearing toques and the overall fullness my heart and soul feels when the colder weather is approaches.
what are your favourite things to do in fall? do you have any cozy vibe things you must absolutely do for yourself to feel better? any favourite fall-esque songs you think i should add to my playlist?

the seasons are changing and i'm running out of excuses. i thought this last time this year, and i hope i don't this time next year.



thank you if you've made it this far, i hope you've all had a lovely summer and are looking forward to fall and the promises and wishes that come with it and that you simply just work on being the best version of yourself you can possibly be. if you're finding it hard to find that thing or that motivation, i hear you. reach out to me or someone else for accountability and support. community is everything. these are my thoughts from the sea this week, xo